Love Letter 3: 08/30,
Princess, I need you. You are my angel, my Aphrodite, my soulmate, my everything, my forever. We’re two souls who match in our weirdness, our passion, and the way we just fit. I love your beauty, but even more, I love your mind and your soul. You are my favorite person in this entire world, and it hurts when you think I don’t love you because I do, endlessly, with every beat of my heart.
When you call me, I always want to answer. Sometimes life has gotten in the way my brother talking to me, my mom pulling me into projects, or me driving, but it is never because I don’t want you or don't want to talk to you. I am not finding excuses and I genuinely was busy or being interrupted. The truth is, when we planned our calls, those moments were perfect. I want that again tonight. Let me finish breakfast and unpack a little, and then let’s stay on video call for hours, face to face, soul to soul.
And about the police thing, my love I think you misunderstood me. I was never saying I would just hang up on you. I was only warning that if a police car pulled up right beside me and I was touching my phone, it could mean a ticket. But otherwise, I didn’t care about the law at all and I wanted to stay on the call with you the whole time. That day I was so happy and so excited when you video called me. Seeing your face lit me up inside and when I told you how beautiful you are, I meant it with every ounce of my being.
The TRUTH is, the last time I felt a love this pure was when I was 12, holding Misty in my arms. She was my first real love, the kind of love so innocent and unconditional that it fills your whole heart. That’s what my love for you feels like now, only stronger, deeper, and eternal. Just like Misty gave me comfort and joy back then, you are my comfort, my joy, my safe place now.
You are the love of my life, my forever, my askim, my future wife, my sapsal. If I could hold you right now, I would never let go. Until then, let me see your face tonight and let me remind you, over and over, how deeply and completely I love you.
You are mine and I am always yours.
All my love,
Jayden
Love Letter 1: 08/15 Askim, I need you in my life and I'm so sorry for my thoughtlessness.
From the moment destiny brought us together, I have carried your heart with me in every breath I take. My heart learned to beat not for itself, but for the promise of our love. I treasure every message, every laugh, and every dream we’ve built across these 11k kms and I don't want to lose that.
Though distance stretches between our bodies, I feel your soul sewn into mine, with a thread that will last forever. Please forgive me for the careless moments where I made you feel less than the queen of my universe, my sun, my moon, my stars, my everything. I vow to honor your heart with reverence, patience, and unconditional love.
As you scroll through SOME of our memories below, know my intentions in each one remain: to cherish you, to grow with you, to hold your hand and to one day kiss your lips in real life instead of through this screen.
Eternally Yours,
Jayden
Love Letter 2: 08/17 Askim, I understand you can't just forgive and forget but know I will love you forever if you let me.
I know forgiveness isn’t something that happens just because someone says “I forgive you.” It’s something built slowly in the heart over time, once it truly feels safe again. If I made it harder for you to forgive me, I’m genuinely sorry from the bottom of my beaten and bruised heart. I never wanted to rush your healing or make you feel like you had to pretend everything was okay.
You mean more to me than any apology, website, song, or grand gesture that I could do. None of it could ever be enough to show how deeply I love you, because you are the heartbeat behind all of it. I didn’t do any of it to win you back like some prize. You are so much more than that. I did it because I simply can’t help but love you with every corner of my soul and every fiber in my heart, even when I know I shouldn’t expect anything in return. But Angel I need you.
You once called me your home, and I'll hold onto that forever, I promise that I will become the man you deserve: loving, safe, paitent, honest, and strong. If I have failed to be that for you, then let me honor you by being the man who steps back without begging or anger. Not because I have stopped loving you or want this to end, but because I love you so much that it hurts me if my presence brings you pain or discomfort.
So if your heart still hurts, I understand. If you need distance, I'll give you space. If one day you realize I am the man who would love you with all his heart and be the perfect father to our future childern and you decide to come back, no matter how long it takes, I'll be here. Not waiting helplessly or drowning in pain, but growing into someone stronger for you, someone stronger for you, someone who will never let you feel unheard or insecure again.
Thank you for every memory, every laugh, and every dream we shared from our quiet moments dancing in our kitchen that I build for you, to imagining our daughter and son, raising them to be wonderful human beings like their parents. You've are permanently part of me in my very heart and soul. Whether we stay intertwined or drift apart, I felt our two souls burning together across the seas, and my love for you will remain fierce and enduring.
Take care of your heart. And know that mine still beats your name... Sabina...(Alton?)
Always yours, askim